March 2011
So, is it like really super conceded of me to have a picture of myself at the top of my blog…?
# Day 10: Something at which you’ve been a champion or the best.
What a weird question. I don’t know if anyone is really best at anything. Me especially. I’m just, you know, average. I feel like my imagination might be pretty cool compared to some other people’s.
It’s really hard to say what I’m best at.
I feel like I do well in what I’m passionate in. So...
February 2011
# Day 08: Vacation Hiatus
# Day 09: Vacation Hiatus
I took these to mean take a break. So I did.
“Fuck whoever you want until you’re 25. Then, you can decide it’s...”
– Closing Bartender, Zach.
I love my job. I love my job way too much.
I really love the people I work with, that’s why I love my job.
The other hostess is ridiculous, happy all the time, it puts me in a good mood. She’s always got something to talk about, like her new puppy, or just something funny.
My boss is ridiculous. Absolutely ridiculous, but he’s becoming like a dad to me, he laughs and asks...
# Day 07: Vacation Hiatus
What does this mean?
“So have a drink, let’s talk it over. So many things I shouldn’t be...”
– Katy Perry, Use Your Love.
# Day 06: Something that excites you and fills you with joy.
I think sleep excites me and fills me with joy. Why? Because whenever I know I’m going to get my full 12+ hours of sleep (which these days is about once in a blue moon) I’m extremely excited about it. And when I am able to get enough sleep to where I naturally wake up and am not being woken up my an alarm of some kind, I am...
# Day 05: Something in life that gives you balance.
Something that gives me balance? I think my job gives me balance. And it gives me balance for so many reasons.
It gives me balance in a sense that, while every night is not the same, that I walk in to the night knowing what lies ahead and what I have to do. It’s routine work.
It also provides me balance because I work with older...
# Day 04: Something that is part of your routine that you enjoy.
I’m trying to think of my routine. My daily routine. I think I have a couple favorite things.
So if I have school, my favorite part of the day is after school.
To begin with, I’m done with school for the day, and I love that. I like when I get in to my car and its warm in the car from the sun, but nice outside. I...
# Day 03: Something with which you struggle.
I think what I really struggle with, is well… I struggle with a lot. Who doesn’t struggle wit a lot?
In a sense, I struggle with the idea of justice, and things being fair. I want to believe there is some justice out there, I’m just yet to see it. I try to maintain the idea that the best is yet to come. But I struggle then with the...
“So many roads. So many detours. So many choices. So many mistakes.”
– Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City.
Getaway. →
“Monday comes like a loaded gun and I’m trying to escape. Want to run, wanna chase this sun, let it walk the world away. Looking out on an empty street, thinking change is what I need.”
Favorite. Plus, I love her outfit, shoes, hair and makeup.
I keep myself going for things I can’t have. And I’m not really sure why. I’m sad, but it’s really my own fault. I just wish I could wrap my head around reality better. At such a loss at where to turn.
Another stand still kind of moment. Looking around at my tables, wondering how much longer?
# Day 02: Something you regret not having done last year.
I’m trying to think about it, what I regret not doing last year. I’m really trying to think about the last year. What was going on between now and last February. I’m not so sure I can really think of anything. I always try to learn from whatever, compared to regretting it.
I think my junior year I wish I had focused...
Got home from work, and like any other night, I’m avoiding my homework for a few minutes…
# Day 01: Something you’re looking forward to this year.,
It’s hard to pick one thing that I’m looking forward to this year; it’s only February of the new year. So the only thing I can really think of that I know is coming up that’s exciting and something I’m...
# Day 01: Something you’re looking forward to this year.
# Day 02: Something you regret not having done last year.
# Day 03: Something with which you struggle.
# Day 04: Something that is part of your routine that you enjoy.
# Day 05: Something in life that gives you balance.
# Day 06: Something that excites you and fills you with joy.
# Day 07: Vacation Hiatus
# Day 08: Vacation...
Got in to work and looked at the floor for the night. After looking, I just wanted to go home. Hopefully that’s different tomorrow night.
“And then I realized something: twenty-something girls are just fabulous, until...”
– Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City.
tumblrbot asked: WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?
I need to check myself, before I wreck myself. Also, I love when guys show you are. Play your game, but I know the rules. No girl is the exception.
Me: “Cooper, will you be my work Valentine?”
Cooper: “Actually, I have some options I’m deciding between.”
Me: “Wait… so that’s a no…?”
(Later…)
Me: “Do you work tomorrow?”
Nick: “All day.”
(Shortly after…)
Nick: “So are you going to be my work Valentine, or what?”
Me:...
Becca: “It’s 11! We’re closed. Yes!”
Nick: “That late? I’m going to turn in to a pumpkin soon.”
Me: “You mean, you’re not Prince Charming?”
It’s not that Homeboy is too old for me. It’s that Homeboy is WAY too old for me.
I would hate to call it justice. It isn’t. But I understand, that maybe I was being given some of my own medicine. In a sense, before I even really knew it. And all while I think I have this understanding, a part of me still cripples at the blow. Part of my mind, far in the dark corners, wanders curiously hoping to find the unknown, grasp it, and understand it. And yet, its as if I...
