March 2012
All I want to know is if I am making some mistake now that could be avoided. I just want to know that I’ll be happy, that I will be able to afford a nice vacation without being bitched at or feel pinched over. That I have a job that is decent and.makes me happy. I just hope o haven’t made any mistakes or passed by opportunities that I should have taken.
I wonder if
The tears on my face would make you happy? Or happier. When was the last time I made something happen for us… I love you. I thought that was all that mattered.
Sometimes what I need most is support. And when I do it is usually what I get the least.
Sometimes I wonder what business is. Most the time I’m convinced it is a stroke of luck. Because it’s not always the smart people, right? Or at least in the way they might typically be viewed. But perhaps those who are able to assess the risk the best. Or perhaps merely understand the opportunity at hand. But I wonder if opportunity passes by every day. If opportunity is fair but we...
Starting to feel the pressure. I can do it, I just have to focus and not waste time. These are my two worst traits.
Boss says I am not on her list, asked if I am coming back. :O ah
UGH. GROSS.
And what blows me away the most is that what are we fighting about? Vacation. Man, oh, man.
I AM NEVER ENOUGH. I AM NEVER DOING ENOUGH. AND I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF IT. IF YOU WANTED ME TO CONTRIBUTE SO MUCH THEN WHY DIDN’T YOU SAY SO? I TOLD YOU WHAT I HAD TO OFFER. IF YOU WANTED MORE WHY DIDNT YOU FUCKING SAY SO??? I WOULD HAVE SAID LET’S GO IN THE FALL WHEN I AM THE ONE SITTING ON 5 FUCKING GRAND. LIKE GOOD GOD HELP ME. I AM SO MAD. AND I AM SO MAD I AM SHAKING. IM SO TIRED...
HOW DO I NOT HAVE $5,000 RIGHT NOW??? →
Time to start my homework… >:l
Didn’t realize as coming to get scolded for being late. Sorry, I didn’t know that it was important that I be home at 3. Seeing as how when you tell Rachael 4 and she doesn’t show up until fucking 5:30 it’s not that big of a deal. Like I was getting lunch with a friend. Came home because I thought you’d like to see me. But I guess I’m wasting my time. At least...
Hope it’s not THAT conceded that I have 3 pictures of myself as the heading to my blog… :S
